I think I'm going to be sick to my stomach, breaking someone's heart cause I can't handle the stress of a relationship. Sucks and I knew with this one it would happen. But no, I did it anyway... Some one really does hate me. Just to a point that they want me to suffer all these emotions and feelings. I hate it. Why do I bother with it all? Why?

It's normal for you to feel thus way when some thing like thus happens... Really feel like you just crushed someone's world? Breaking some one's heart like that? No, it's fucked up...wrong and cruel.

And I hate it.

I just can't with Craigslist

Just the job posting alone are stupid and funny and sad. *sigh*

Found a someone, might be special

Not sure just yet, taking things slow with this guy but he's of course nice blah blah. Typical crap. Least he's very straight forward with me doesn't sugar shit which is a nice change. Don't think he likes my sarcasm but that's not changing sorry Heh. But we well see where it goes.

Surprising

I want to get these things done but what is stopping me from well doing them? I mostly think it's me of course. Who else is pulling my arm going 'no don't' while everyone who cares about me Says i can. Need to just get this block out of the way and relax.